I recently decided that I wanted some new glasses. My body, the astrological transits in my chart, signs and messages and my intuition are all telling me that I am in a place of transition. I think the new funky glasses are part of the way I am trying to express the shifts and changes that I am feeling internally on the outside. It is also my way of playing with my identity. This shift I am experiencing feels significant and at times I feel uncertain as to exactly who I am or perhaps more accurately, who I am becoming. So why not play? Why not try and shake up how I am used to seeing myself in order to make room for whatever wants to come forward.
Speaking of whatever wants to come forward...
I was recently posed a question: Am I ready for something new or are there loose ends to resolve? What would be the something new? This is where the Pots de Crème enters the picture. I want to learn more about cooking and baking. I have fantasies about being a contestant on the Great British Baking Show. I also have fantasies about having a large kitchen and house filled with family, friends and fascinating acquaintances for whom I cook the most delicious meals and delicacies. I believe that food can be a most potent medicine. Cooking is also one of my love languages and I want to shower people in love. Is cooking school in my future? I don't know the answer to that question at this moment. I still have significant student loan debt and being an artist is not always the most secure of incomes (at least not yet).
So for the moment I have decided that I am going to train like I am a contestant on the Great British Baking Show. This Friday I will be making Honey Vanilla Pots de Crème. This will be my first Pots de Crème and I am so excited. I will be going on an adventure to see if I can find some local honeycomb to place in the top of the tiny pots of goodness. I would like to pair this bit of deliciousness with Lavender Shortbread Cookies. I have ordered some ingredients that I need that I cannot find locally. If they get here on time for Friday (this is when my family comes over for a weekly meal) then I will include them in the line up. If not, they will wait for a couple of weeks because next week I am trying my hand at a bread recipe. This excites me.
Now for the pause. Some days I still wear my old or previous glasses. Some days I know I need to be quiet and alone in a cabin in the woods. Some days I soak in the bath longer than is "necessary". Some days I wander around the cove listening to the geese and eagles flying. In this transition, my rhythms are changing and it feels important for me to incorporate moments of pause and stillness. These moments can feel cocoon like. There are whispers that come through in the stillness. Hints about where I am headed, messages about what remains to be resolved, and guidance in learning about how to be more fully present. Pauses are important, especially in large transitions.
About yesterday's lack of a post after my announcement to do one daily - It was a busy day and I am still adapting my schedule and routine to include getting this post out. I would say I am sorry but that is one of those behaviors that I am trying to leave in the past. Apologizing for something that there is really no need to apologize for. As a woman, it is one of those things that society has gotten comfortable with us doing. It no longer feels comfortable to me. I am learning and growing. I think some of the magic may lie in waking up the next day, being grateful and picking up where you left off.
Today is day 87 of the 365 Project.
I hope your day holds some delicious sweetness, playful fun and moments of pause.